Posted in Journal, Life, the medical profession, tagged "agree t0 use knowledge to help womeh", back to bed, media relations, student observerskk intubation, the medical profession, try tomorrow, Vercedm morphine, VIN on 23 May, 2008 | No Comments »
23 May 2008
This awful thing In my life Is now over, and I still live somehow.
The worst was the waiting, and the trying desperately to get someone – anyone – to listen to my fears, my concerns, my needs. They didn’t care about those things. They said all they cared about was my [...]
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Posted in Journal, Life, rape, the medical profession, tagged accident, afternoon, anesthesiologist, anger, anxiety, blood test results, body weak in morning, cat fod, CDs, colonoscopy doctor, consent form, country, crying, doctor, doctor's assistant, EKG, emotion, exam, fear, funerals, grocery store, gynecological, gyno-onco, hospital, house burning down, humiliation, hurt, intubation, medical records, mother's death, movies, MRIs, neighbor, nursing staff, oncologist, pain, police offer, pre-op test results, rape, rude, sleep, sobbing, sorrow, strength, student observers, surgery, tears, terror, the word "no", TV news, VIN, weddings, women and children, x-rays on 6 May, 2008 | No Comments »
6 May 2008
I didn’t.
Of course I didn’t. That bit of strength within me has been swallowed up by massive emotional beasts of fear, terror, anxiety, anger, hurt, pain, humiliation and sorrow. I cannot seem to deal with any of this without breaking down in tears, and sometimes, it frustrates me.
I am a cryer. [...]
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