Posted in Journal, Life, the medical profession, tagged allergies, anesthesia, asthma, bad teeth, cancer, choking anxiety, colonoscopy, deaf, dental surgery, endoscopy, hospital policy, intubation, Katie Couric, medical martyr, missed the bus, mutilation, pain, pills, police, postnasal drip, power, pre-operative, radiation, rules, spina bifida occulta, spinal anesthetic, swallowing anxiety, tonsillectomy, twilight state, vomiting, waking up during anesthesia, x-rays on 30 April, 2008 | No Comments »
30 April 2008
I can’t stop trembling. I can’t stop crying. Everywhere I go, everyone I talk to, gets five minutes of peace before I break down.
Today was my pre-operative nightmare. I was handled by so many people I feel like I have disappeared. That is the way they make you feel: [...]
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Posted in Journal, Life, cats, rape, the medical profession, tagged "I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings", "Mel Gibson - Dream Gynecologist", "Saturday Night Live", "The Wicker Man", anesthesia, bleeding, breast cancer, bus transportation, C-section, cancer, cane, cat, dermatoma, dignity, dislodged tube, Ellen Burstyn, female mutilation, getting drunk, gynecologic examination, gynecology, humanity, insurance, lesbian, male doctors, mourning, mutilation, Nicholas Cage, oncology, ovarian cyst, pain, Pap test, pizza, Quaker, rape, raw emotion, Rolling Rock, scarring, smoking, speculum, spina bifida occulta, student observation, Sudoku, surgery, teaching hospital, thin skin, vagina, veterinarian, vinegar, vulva on 26 April, 2008 | No Comments »
26 April 2008
Yesterday, I met for the first time with my gynecologic oncologist. It was a nightmare.
The first bus I had to catch was ten minutes late, which meant that I probably was not going to be able to catch the second bus to get there on time, and which meant I would have [...]
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Posted in Journal, Life, cats, the medical profession, tagged "Rebel Without a Clue", Add new tag, agnosticm, anesthesia, antidepressants, Bast, Bonnie Tyler, buses, cab, cat group, cats, Christian, chronic kidney failure, computer games, Cosmo, darkness, depression, divorce, doctors, falling, fighting City Hall, financial, frustration, genealogy, gynecologist, Hades, health, HEAP, heart murmur, hematoma, Jew, light, math, miracles, MRI, MS, neurologist, normalcy, obsessive, Persephone, pharmacies, police, prayer, redneck bar, Sikh, Social Security, stress, Sudoku, surgery, TIA, Traffic and Parking, veterinarian, videos, Wicca on 19 April, 2008 | No Comments »
18 April 2008
It does seem as though the darkness seeks me out. I wonder sometimes how much one woman can take at once? I know that others have taken more, but my ability to deal with things is as flimsy as the excuses I sometimes tell myself about why I can’t deal with [...]
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Posted in Journal, Life, Love, US politics, rape, suicide, tagged assassinations, Barack Obama, Bobby Kennedy, Dr. King, dream world, dreams, hope, lover, music, mutilated, passion, quasi-rape, sex, sexuality, suicide attempt, The Lady of Shalot, US politics, VIN surgery, violated on 4 April, 2008 | 2 Comments »
4 April 2008
It is Friday afternoon, April 4, and I am thinking about that shot ringing out in the Memphis sky.
I may be white, but somehow, many of my heroes are black. And Dr. King is certainly one of them. The vision, the dreams, the words, the courage – he had them all. [...]
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